Sample 1:
She asked why love feels so far away.
THE time we are in
We are deeply mental -
always thinking
and analyzing,
and lately,
things aren’t how they used to be.
We aren’t who
we used to be.
We are far away from “normal.”
We are coloring
outside of our lines -
and maybe with new colors.
Being in new spaces
can be curious,
or exciting,
or daunting,
or unstable,
and we might be called
to be bold and brave when
breaking beyond boundaries.
This time will surely
expand our minds,
and most certainly will
alter our hearts.
We sit in opposition to the heart,
at a point of tension,
and a vital decision
must be made.
We are called to
align
heart and mind
or…
let
one
win.
Which would win?
Which will win?
We are
dipping toes
and eyes
and ears
and whole bodies
into new and
“innovative” systems.
We are
experimenting
with wild technologies,
and we have
yet to
appreciate or innerstand
our own bodies -
the pure and divine
intelligence of
fully and holy and wholly
being ourselves.
We barely know
ourselves
and we throw guesses
about truths
like sharp arrows.
Outwardly,
we are
intentionally,
nearly forcefully,
divided.
Split -
over control
over safety
over charity
over power
over humanity
and policy
and sovereignty
and war
and wisdom
and weapons
and past
and future
and self
and values
and life.
This is why
the heart feels so far away,
because
this is not love.
This is ignorance.
Love is not felt here because
we were not born
to find love here.
We were born
to make love here.
PLEASE,
don’t go looking for love.
That kind of search is endless.
It’s an exhausting mental game,
no match
for a surrender of heart.
So, make love.
Make love -
over a meal -
over a moment -
over a memory.
If love feels far away,
consider it a direct call.
Bring it close.
Pull it tightly to you
like a lover in sweet relief
and make love there
for a very long while.
Start there.
Love
you.
- Jacquelyn Benjamin
Sample 2: This “poem” is one of several that speak to the connection between emotion and the physical body. Considering a full, small book of body work poems or writings?
TOXIC VIRTUES
I wish I wasn’t so loyal.
I wish I hadn’t made the best of everything.
Those rose colored glasses didn’t do me any favors.
Those “virtues” kept me stuck,
paralyzed, at times.
Always trying to analyze
how to reconcile
my real feelings
with the ones that
made others see me as
a good girl.
A good woman.
A worthy woman.
A Godly woman.
All of that grinning and bearing it
left me with a tight jaw
and a hardened heart,
closed-off from others,
because after a long while
of holding things in,
there was no more space.
No room for love.
I built walls with my “virtues” -
so many of them
I became trapped by them
in a semi-comfortable prison
custom-created
by me.
Sample 3:
I wrote this after doing three body code sessions on my 80 year old grandmother who has been a family servant for her entire lifetime. She had a difficult time with the sessions because the releases were palpable. She will never get the recognition she deserves, but I am honored to play a part in her relief.
USED.
I used to pride myself on making myself feel useful -
on making others lives easier so that I would be lovable.
So that I would be wanted and needed.
I built systems that focused on other people, and I took up so little of my own real estate that I hardly lived here at all.
Never truly in my own body tending to my own needs, but always acutely aware of others.
Anticipating on their behalf.
Preventing their suffering and general discomforts.
This experience of not being fully in my own body created pathways for me that I couldn’t see.
All of that neglect and distraction distorted energy in my body and blocked spaces where love needed to flow.
It numbed and eliminated sensation where ecstasy could be, and hardened the parts of me that longed to be soft and held and nurtured.
My inability - and sometimes unwillingness - to feel stifled all of that energy.
Over time, the reservoir of pressure grew and the container will only hold so much.
The release comes as an expression of discomfort or pain or distraction so severe that it’s captivating.
Demanding my attention, it begs,
“Look at this! Look at all of this that I’ve held inside. Look how much I am holding onto! Something has to go!”
A lifetime of build-up will be too uncomfortable at some point, so I am better off facing it now.
As I become more willing to let go, my body cooperates.
As I relieve the emotional pressure, my life and breath and heart expand.
Life and love sneaks in where numbness and hurt used to be.
That’s where I find me.
Finally.